I want to be able to eat what i want but i don’t want to have to binge. I want to be able to eat a healthy diet and correct amount without being obsessive. I want to not have the psychological repercussions of gaining weight. I want to not be afraid of calories in food but equally not idealize the whole concept of food. I want to be able to think of more important things than anorexia. I want to not be drawn towards self destruction on a daily basis. I want to want to live my life.